I’m in Love
August 23, 2023
Written By Sherri Graf
I’m in love
It started years ago. I don’t know that I’ve told many about this love. Some might call it an obsession or an escape; these things might be true but I have no intention of giving up this relationship any time soon, in fact probably never.
There are many things that have captured my heart but it’s his words I love the most.. They speak to me in such meaningful and profound ways, daring greatly to push me to new heights. Words that inspire me to be better, words that challenge me and words that speak to the darkest cavities of my wounded heart. The way they take me to places I’ve never been, introduce me to friends I’ve never met. This love has become my personal hiding place.
To be honest it was difficult to love this way at first. It was a redeeming love, one I’d never known before. I struggled to calm myself enough to enjoy the quiet and serenity. Always busy, spinning my life in circles, it seemed unnatural to love this way. Almost like it was a gift to celebrate my imperfections. It made me want to escape away to a place where the crawdads sing and just soak up nature and the things the places that make my own heart sing.
It took years for the relationship to develop but it started to really captivate my heart in college. In fact, when we first officially met, I was so excited, I was almost untamed. My first experience was when I was a college freshman. I’d dabbled in relationships before but nothing had ever captivated my heart like this. This was different. Unique. I could sit for hours in this relationship, losing all track of time. It’s almost like I’d become a love warrior.
There were several firsts that year, I still remember them fondly today. There is something about your first that you simply never forget. These moments stole pieces of my heart and I have never been the same since. Some too fragile to elaborate on. Too tender. Too raw. I felt fierce, free and full of fire for the first time. Almost like I was being taken to new and high places.
In fact, one of the firsts in this relationship inspired me to dream of going to Africa someday. That dream planted in my heart so many years ago became a reality almost 35 years later. It all started with this single love affair.
Have you ever known a love like this ???? I’ve known 4 loves, but nothing compared to this one. Someone or something that could completely sweep you off your feet and then moments later, send your heart and mind spiraling to places you never imagined ?? It’s a severe mercy.
My love of books is never quenched. The amount of books on my bookshelves is always growing. If you don’t know this love, I encourage you to find it for yourself.
